1st : Become House Wife part 1

How to be smart house wife ? I think that the first question.
First ... You must become House Wife, easy to say or maybe easy for some people but not me.
More than about commitment, house wife are about start new things which maybe I don't like them and leave some thins that I love.
What is that ? Simple, House work!!
I live alone in my small apartment, working as marketing which always busy about follow up client, dealing with the client for project and many things else. Often I woke up late in my holiday and come back home late in my work day. Become House wife never cross in my mind.
I pay some body for cleaning my apartment, just cooking simple food for my lazy day, and mostly I eat outside in meeting with client. But don't be wrong, I can do house work, if I want but that is harder than analysis data in my computer or presentation for get new project in my company.
Ups .. I forget to let you know that I work in interior design and supplies company.
If I will be the wife, this profession absolutely not acceptable, I realize that.
Mostly the staff in my company are Men, we often do some chit - chat about something which not have connection with our job for refreshing and sometimes when thay share about the fail relationship between them with their wife or girl friend, the excuse so classic.
" she cannot be good girl friend/wife"
what is the description of good girlfriend or house wife ?
Carlos said : must be understanding, caring of me like have a more time for with me.
hmmmm.... understanding is relative, I think everybody have their own meaning for that. but for have more time with me .... I am not really in that kind of woman.
Andy said : She always stressed about her work or anything that I don't understand.
" How often ? " I ask
" every week, but mostly weekend she is better"
that is the meaning they don't like to have woman which have stress ? but every one have a stress. I often stress about my work and that are effect my mood for a while.often also I bring the stress until at home.
So, House wife are really far from me. I completely understand about that. and I don't have a problem and my boyfriend also. We don't have a plan for married at the moment.
But " when you married ? your parent already old, please think about that we want some body take care of you when we are passed a way" this question always come to me and my boyfriend when we talk with our parents.
I was married with my lovely boyfriend, Bryan. we decide that in the 80's birthday of Bryan's Dad. more than to make our family happy we love and I think we really understand each other. And I am sure Bryan can understand how I am looks like. The married absolutely what I want But...
Become House wife is completely accident for me, I want married but not to be house wife.
We married for make us together forever, I love him and he love me. Bryan and me really know how we looks like, we love our work and we always in the competition of career. And we decide for move to Bryan's House
 few months after our married, Bryan decide for start for building his company. Opposite with Bryan, I lost my job, the company that I work must closed because the complicated scandals by the owners and Director, and the bank take over everything. They don't pay my last salary not even say thank you for my loyalty with them/.
I still have some money for support my life, but depend about how long I got new Job.
Damn !!!! few days after our house got robbed. The robber got help from my hose maid which we trust. they take everything just left the kitchen equipment and hardware.
at least I can still cook for our food even we don't have blanket for sleep. I lost my laptop where are my portfolio there, they take everything even the external hard drive. I am stress ? absolutely.
Bryan still lucky he still have his computer which in service in that time. but he more stress than me. He lost cash money, and many thing that important. The conditions not easy, Bryan keep looking his bad luck never try to see that I have bad luck also. I can understand about his stress, he lost his credit card and the robber use it for some shopping, he lost the cash money, he lost some electronic staff like TV and etc. and he lost  all some back up of his Job, not all like mine. Bryan become more sensitive and easy for get angry in with small thing.
One of the my lucky Bryan buy me the new laptop, the specifications better than mine before. Still no data that I need for looking new Job.
We are stress but bryan thinking that just him in a problem, I feel alone. I don;t want to share what my feeling is to anyone else. No body can't keep another people secret trust me, one time it spread and the gossip will start and make the situation worst.
With our limited money I start my own business in interior supplies. I got project really great project and work with great people for a while. until the jealously come. Man still man, the want to be bigger than woman in every thing. I don't realize that time. Bryan always emotion when I talk about that project. and because we don't have maid. I do house work and my new small business. Bryan often complain about that I am too long in computer, I work too much to something that not sure bring profit for me. I am little bit depressed especially one of my worker disappear in the time that we must do revision with our client about our Job. I am alone no help when the client getting mad because she cannot reach their deadline. I lost my big opportunity for start my new business and my money as well. They don't pay the balance payment. and the worst thing my worker come one week after for ask the payment. he increase the amount that we already agree before. I try to faith but I just one woman alone, I try to face it, but my client and my worker still in their own opinion that they are right for not pay me because me and my worker not responsible for the revisions that we are agreed and my worker doesn't feel guilty at all for his disappear in the day that he must work he still as me money, big money. I depressed and I cannot hold my elf to told Bryan about this situations.
You don't need to guess what happen, Bryan angry. And he doesnt me allow for have connection with all my friends, just because that case.
" Just concern become wife, you take care the house work and let me think about our financial"  He said.
I lost my freedom to see my friend, but that the best solution for at the moment. I don't have a choice I become the house wife. Not good but still acceptable. Lucky, I have Bryan as my husband, he love my food, and he can understand if  my house work not perfect.
I am the beginner as the house wife and I am not good.

By the time I find out that not too difficult for transform to be house wife. I think that is good Idea for erase my depressed and make our relationship better. I never know that Bryan want to serve more, he want to own me more that I think. We talk about his problem in our lunch just his problem not mine (we try to help me forget about that). Every time he need to go for take care what ever he needs like do the driver license, tax and anything like that, he always bring me with him. Nice.... but I feel some thing lost from me,